How letting go can change everything

Sometimes we all need a push, a nudge from the universe to trust our own inner wisdom. For me a phone call was the catalyst to propel me to forward to follow my own journey to wellness and healing.
After spending morthahalf omy liflookinfoanswers and a namto calthe constanpain that I havfelsince mteens, suddenly in onmoment, banswerinmmobile, could I have an explanation?. It was a Mondamorning in December 2013, I wasittinamdesk in TV3 feeling the pressure, I wamishoofor a onhour festivTspecial calleCominhomforChristmasthwholshohad to be filmed, edited, anddelivered to air on Christmaeve.  Coupled witthat I hamy weekly radio show on Sunshine 106.8 variouvoiceovework, anas it was December so volunteered tocover a few afternoon shifts on a Charity radio stationcalled Christmas FM, I was snowed under. number flasheup on my mobile and I recognised iimmediately asSVincentHospital. Muctmsurprisit wamdoctor, I havbeeattendinDr Paul Murphy fomanyyears for ongoing pain management procedures, however I had nevereceived a calfrohim, so in hindsight I shouldhavprobably listened a bimore carefullomaybeveasked a fequestions, but I jussai‘yes, yes, eyes, ok,great, thanyouseyooFriday… bye’. I dimanagtscrawchiarmalformation 1’ which he told me was a rare brain disorder and my recent MRI scanned showed that I had it, as if that wasn’t troubling enough the MRI showed more cervical disc degeneration.
The phone call was brief but the impact was huge, not because of the diagnosis but because of what I did next. Mgut instinct kicked in and I listened, it was like an inspirational poke prompting me to make a change. So I did something unplanned and very out of character, I asked my linmanager in TV3 if I could apply for 3 monthleaveThe chain reaction began; hathe email confirming I could take leave starting in January.
Knowing I would have this timoff seemed to pusmethrough December, mpain level waverhigh, but knowinsomdowntime waahead was a reamotivatotokeep going fothose lasfeverbusantaxinweeks owork.
During those weeks I ignored my new diagnosis and what it would mean for my life and me. But something seismic had shifted inside, I realised I felt numb to my life; I was just going through the motions, feeling totally out of balance. In truth, I was at breaking point, taking pill after pill to mask my pain, I desperately struggled through work only to crash and burn at the end of every week, and I had no quality of life. I was hopelessly trying to stay afloat despite the tsunami of excess – too much pain, too much work, too much stress, life was becoming too much and I felt I was drowning.  
I knew I couldn’t change the destination of my life overnight but I was willing to change the direction and explore calmer waters. I wasnquitpreparefothvoyagof discoveryand transformation I was about to embark on, guideonlmdesiranbeliethat I could heal’ mself bactperfechealth, happinesanoveralwellnesand balance.
In January 2014 I took 3 monthleavfromemployment and began a much more important daily job – self care I had spent my whole working career being dedicated and determined, achieving and completing many goals with real passion. So I decided to apply those same qualities to the wellbeing of my mind, body and soul. It wasn’t all calm waters, change represents uncertainty, whether it’s planned or unplanned, it can be very uncomfortable. Embrace the unease and use it to re-examine your life and consider what direction really matters most – for me it was my health.
 My advice; listen to the inner you and make a shift – Be willing to let go of what no longer serves you. Situations, relationships, jobs, hobbies and places all have expiry dates, if something no longer feels good don’t be afraid to get rid of it. Sometimes by letting go we are free to explore and manifest brilliant new possibilities.
Woman’s Way Article 23rd February
Read about Andrea’s journey to Wellness in her new book ‘Pain-free life; My Journey to Wellness’ by Mercier press.
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